The Concept of "The Secret Life"

Recently I've read from a book about the concept of a "secret life". From what I understood, this "secret life" is the "real life" we have because it's a collection of our most vulnerable, authentic, honest, raw, unedited and unfiltered moments. What we have when we are just ourselves-- with no one to judge how messy our lives might look like from the outside. When we're done with putting up a "happy face mask" for everyone to see. When we can cry our hearts out without minding whether we look like garbage. When we don't mind sobbing and crying for hours on end because we're allowed to cry and feel sad without being guilty about feeling sad. Or when we laugh like crazy when we realize the crazy choices we made, we laugh so hard that we don't even care whether we actually look this-level-of-crazy to others. Or how about when we scold ourselves to death for all the times we've made the wrong choices at the right moments. 

I paused for minutes which felt like hours. 

When was the last time I took care of my secret life? 

When was the last time my life felt authentic and true to me? 

We get so caught up in trying to live and make a living and taking care of others and working our butts and hearts out-- "busy", as we simply call it. It seems like when we're not busy we feel like we're not productive and when we don't feel productive we feel like we're useless and therefore of no worth whatsoever. 

It seems like we placed our value in being "busy" that whenever we get a few minutes or hours that we don't get to do anything, we always try to make ourselves "busy" by scrolling thru our phones, watching videos, listening to podcasts, reading ebooks or paperback books, etcetera. 

It seemed like society aka the corporate world has implanted this thought in us that our time should always be productive and that we should always be doing and doing and doing. 

Doing. Doing something. 

That we almost always forget we are human beings. Beings. 

Not human doings. 

When was the last time we were actually human beings and not human doings? 

*written by Jong